change is the real constant
It’s time for an update….
Life has been happening and what I wanted to share with you in July had to take a pause. My heart needed some serious TLC.
As you may know here in the Northern Hemisphere, we are in the height of summer….
Summer is the time of purification. A time when the sun is at its highest point and we have an opportunity to burn away and cleanse what no longer serves our best and highest good.
I am a firm believer in following and attuning to the cycles of the Earth because we are connected to life and connected to Mother Earth. We are a part of the whole and the whole Universe is within us. Wrapping thoughts or words around this is sort of a challenge for our minds; personally, the experience of “I am” resides in my body from lived experiences of transcendence through yoga, dance, meditation, Ayahuasca, Psilocybin, San Pedro, and Bufo.
What I SEE - clearly - without a doubt is….
We are the medicine we seek. I am being called to share this and speak to the many ways this can look, feel and be expressed as we lead with our deepest YES.
I am going through a big life transition.
I’ve wanted to hide. Recluse. And not tell a soul.
From my past experience, my education and my connection with Spirit, I know that would be one hell of a way to cope with this change.
I’ve done it before. And I choose differently this time.
My therapist shared something recently that her grandmother had shared with her that stuck in my mind like honey sticks to a spoon.
“I’d rather be alone than be with someone that makes me feel alone.”
Whew, I continued to hysterically cry after I heard that. I felt the truth in my body. An inner knowing that has plagued me my entire life. Being alone.
I felt the fear rise, I felt my mind want to latch onto control. I felt it all.
When you can feel it all, you can hold it all.
When you can feel it all, you can release it all.
When you can feel it all, you can transmute it all into and through the lens of love.
My beloved, the man I’ve felt the deepest love for in my life to date and I are uncoupling.
We have a home, a truck, things, and children are involved (I could go on and on with the story) but our decision is our deepest YES for ourselves and for one another.
The fear rises and it falls.
The tears come and they go.
The truth in my body is so loud that Spirit is speaking through me to ask for help.
I will not hide this time.
So, I am asking for you to pray for me. That the next place I land I’ll be safe, have time to grieve and also expand beyond my wildest dreams.
I am taking a leap of faith.
I am leading with courage, humility and trust.
I am a role model (first for myself) and then for others, which has given me the ability and experience to lead others through the deepest transformations of their life.
Yes, my life is changing. It’s scary AF.
And what I’ve discovered through this tender process is that we need to see others in their process.
It can no longer just be something we’ve read in a book or watched on a movie screen, we need to watch and be witnessed by others in this process so that we can feel safe to move through the darkest points of our life free of judgment, shame, and guilt that it is supposed to “look, feel, or be” a certain way.
Walk with me……